I need to take a break.
I think that is quite possibly the first time that I have ever said that and truly needed one this badly. I've just come off an 18 month stretch of school, plus baby, a job, wedding planning (which took a bigger toll on me than I expected it to) and now moving. It actually makes me miss the days when I all I had to worry about was finding time to do my homework in between classes and however many hours of practicing. At least then I had some sort of social outlet that I could rely on!
But, in perspective, I know I've got it pretty good. I'm taking a brief opportunity to air some complaints, but honestly, I'm so blessed. I have a great husband (yay!), a wonderful baby, health, and ability. What else do I need? :-)
I think what I feel the lack of more than anything is social time, in particular girl time. It was SO good to have my friends out for the wedding - it's almost indescribable how much I miss them. Knowing that I won't be able to see them again for a long time can be really discouraging if I let it be. Also, it's been really hard to try to find a place to find good friends that I can connect with here in Portland. I'm praying about it, and I'm sure that God will let know what I need to do soon; it's just difficult in the interim. I almost envy my sister-in-law, Beth - all of her friends had babies right around the same time that she did, so she had her own mother's group set up for her already!
I'll probably pull myself aside tomorrow and give me a good talking to. "Now listen, Alli, this too shall pass, so get your rear end in gear, stay peaceful and hopeful, and quit moping!"
Until then, I'll laugh at some Anne Taintor things and get some good sleep. And in the words of one of my favorite heroines,
I'll think about that tomorrow.
I leave you with this:
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